Updated: May 6, 2020
In my last blog post, I talked about my journey being a new graduate nurse at the #1 hospital in the world and why I quit after my first year.
In this blog, I am going to share how I went from being a nurse at a top institution to becoming a waitress making $4/hour with inconsistent tips.
I hope you get some inspiration through my story and it gives you peace of mind if you are on a similar journey or thinking about taking a leap of faith in your nursing career.
MY JOURNEY FROM NURSE TO WAITRESS
THIS WAS NOT PLANNED.
After I quit my nursing job, I got out a toxic relationship and moved back home with my parents.
I had to figure out what I was going to do with my life.
I took the time to reflect and heal from the experiences I had gone through.
I reflected a lot…
Playing scenarios back in my mind, realizing better ways I could have handled certain situations, trying to better understand WHO I WAS compared to WHO I WANTED TO BE.
I knew I wanted to be a nurse again.
But in a healthier environment and an environment that will allow me to bloom into the nurse and person I wanted to be.
After months of reflecting and building my relationship with God, I realized a lot about myself.
God had put me in a season I was not expecting to be in.
I applied to over 80+ nursing jobs in 3 states combined and received “rejection” letters or no responses from all of them.
I was frustrated.
I was confused.
I was hurt.
I felt I had ruined my chances of ever being a nurse again.
I promised I would not allow myself to go back into a dark place mentally because of my current situation.
I wanted to BE strong, not just ACT like it.
One day I was sitting in my car, and I told myself I have to do something to make money while still trying to get back into nursing.
I decided I was going to become a waitress.
fast cash is good, right?
I knew the exact restaurant I wanted to work at.
I applied online, and received a phone call from the manager to come in for an interview.
My interview was 3 minutes long and I received the job that same day.
So I started serving tables making $4/hour, something I had NEVER done before.
But I had already went through a lot mentally with nursing, so I felt this was going to be a walk in the park.
I was working 5 days a week and I loved the idea of being able to go home with my cash tips every night.
If I could make $100 or more a day in tips, I was blessed.
Definitely not the same amount I was making as a nurse at a top hospital.
But I was beyond grateful.
Some weeks were better than others.
Some weeks I didn't know how I was going to make enough to pay my bills.
But I maintained.
I hustled with intention.
All while trying to find my PLACE in the industry I loved and still felt connected too.
I didn't know I had the hustling mentality until I felt pushed into a corner.
Some days I feel like God wants me to do something different within healthcare and some days I feel like I will get a phone call back for an interview one day to be a nurse again.
Only time will tell.
But for now, I am grateful.
I am learning how to allow discomfort to grow me as a person.
I am learning more about myself daily while becoming a better human being.
I am learning the importance of being resilient and choosing a lifestyle that allows me to embrace all that I am.
MY MESSAGE TO YOU
Sometimes, phases come into our lives that teach us things we didn't expect to learn.
Sometimes, we are put in uncomfortable situations to grow.
Sometimes, “rejections” are instead a redirection from the Universe.
Sometimes, we go through things that transform us into who we are meant to be.
Sometimes, we don't receive things we WANT because the Universe is working with our PURPOSE in mind.
Nurses, you are amazing.
You are angels on earth.
We have the power to transform lives in imaginable ways.
Your journey is your own.
Reflect on your experiences.
Become self aware.
Find your purpose.
Pay attention to what sets your soul on fire.
And live for that.
You have the choice to create the life you want, and still be a nurse too.
I’m a waitress now, but I will never stop being a nurse.
The Nurse Empath.